On January 10, 2021, my life changed forever.
At 3:00 a.m., I received a phone call that no parent should ever have to receive. It was my ex-wife calling to tell me that our beloved son had taken his own life. In a moment, my world collapsed.
The grief was unbearable. The pain was beyond words. After my son's funeral, I spiraled into a deep darkness. I cursed God. I pushed Him out of my life. I asked the same question over and over again:
“Why?”
Why my son? Why my family? Why would God allow this?
In my brokenness, the enemy used my grief to destroy me. I stopped caring about my life. I didn't want to live anymore. In the most selfish and destructive way, I began slowly letting myself die.
But God had another plan.
The Moment Everything Changed
On March 28, 2024, I was rushed to the hospital with a severe infection caused by a ruptured sepsis ulcer that had contaminated my entire body.
During emergency surgery, I died twice on the operating table. During a second surgery, I died again.
Doctors placed me in an induced coma and told my daughter and my parents to prepare for my funeral. Medically speaking, people do not recover from what my body had endured.
But through the prayers of loved ones and the grace and mercy of God, I did.
When I finally opened my eyes, I saw my daughter standing beside my hospital bed with a look of shock and disbelief. She explained where I was and what had happened.
Even then, despite surviving the impossible, I still felt empty. I still didn't want to live. I was alive, but my heart was still broken.
The Conversation That Sparked Change
One evening, my daughter and my ex-wife came to visit me. They had a serious conversation with me — one I didn't want to hear at the time.
But something happened that night. The next morning, when I woke up, something inside me had changed. My mind felt clear. My heart felt different. For the first time in years, I felt grateful just to be alive.
In that moment, I spoke honestly to God. I told Him that once I could walk again and once I could drive again, I would return to church and give my life fully to Him.
40 days later, I was released from the hospital.
I knew deep inside that God had saved me for a reason.
Discovering My Calling
When I returned to church, I prayed and asked God: “Why did You save me?”
Out of the thousands of people suffering and dying, why did He spare my life?
As I continued attending church and rebuilding my faith, God began revealing the answer.
I started seeing a need in the community — especially among students and families connected to Motion Christian College / SEU and Motion Christian School.
There were students with a calling to serve God, but they lacked the financial resources to pursue a Christ-centered education. There were families who deeply desired to place their children in faith-based Christian schools, but lacked the financial resources to make it possible.
In that moment, the vision became clear.
The Birth of God of Agape Love Christian Ministries
Out of pain, loss, and restoration, God of Agape Love Christian Ministries was born. This ministry exists to:
- Provide scholarships for students K-12 and Christian college students
- Support families seeking Christ-centered education for their children
- Organize Christian mission trips and retreats that deepen faith and service
- Invest in the next generation of Christian leaders
- Spread the message of God's Agape love — unconditional, redeeming, and life-changing
What the enemy meant for destruction, God turned into purpose.
My son's life will always matter. His memory will always live in my heart. And through this ministry, I pray that countless young people will rise up to serve God, lead with faith, and bring hope into the world.
A Mission Born From Grace
I am alive today only because of God's grace and mercy. God saved my life when the doctors said it was impossible.
And because He gave me another chance, I have committed my life to helping others find hope, faith, and purpose.
God of Agape Love Christian Ministries exists so that future generations can be educated, equipped, and empowered to live for Christ.
“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose.”Romans 8:28
With faith and gratitude,
Mark Johnson
Founder, God of Agape Love Christian Ministries